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the Rest is still unwritten

The thought of me graduating early was too much for me to handle!....currently it is still being "looked at" but chances are I may have to return to do 2 credits of capstone. More time to prepare to go into the real world i guess, but i am still praying that i get to leave this country soon. But what I am returning to, is clearly a country that is still locked in the effing dark ages because we are currently being run by a few racist idiots; but lets not get into that..politics gets me so upset. My hope is that more Trinidadians will read.....yes Trinis have a tendency to go off of "hearsay" and formulate opinions. I read the papers everyday...even when I am not in to country; currently Jamaica is appealing to Trinidad to invest in their country.......STEUPS EH! anyways if I continue this will turn into a 4 page rant.
On a lighter note the Trinis on campus had a Carnival Party! we had a good turn out and even had americans jumping and waving flags to Destra and Machel :)
I tried for the first time a coconut stew chicken and it was soooo good! I could get married now i think!...just need to perfect pelau and I good to go!

Mission Accomplished

Ok so remember when I realized I was fat! well today I am happy to say that the diet paid off! my waist is back down to what I am used to and I am down the 5 pounds I wanted to lose...all i need to do now is tone and stuff
contentment!
Life as a fat person was not fun..I had to be constantly covering my stomach!...I say NO MORE!
Now I can get that navel piercing! but knowing my paranoid ass I will chicken out AGAIN as I have doing since 2007 when I had permission from my mother!
P.S>>for YOU :Life is perfect! you are Perfect and you make me smile ALOT!

i'm in st. joe trick

Hey peeps!
So it's spring break and due to (long boring story) unforeseen  circumstances I remained in St. Joseph , MN and did not go to DC as planned
At least the snow is melting right!
gotta look at the glass half full!
For the past two weeks I have been focusing on school to be honest...even though Biochem is kicking my ass!
I fixed by Dell so i'm less dependent on mini baby and relaxed my hair...which is always a plus!
I ordered a BB so hopefully it  gets here tmr!...I have lots of important people to BB chat.
I have given up shopping at Vickies (VS)  for lent and its been hard....like today I was extremely bored and wanted to shop
but I couldnt!...broke my heart so,
instead juju asked me to go on youtube to learn how to sew weave so I could fix her track....so I did that...got sad again....So I went to sleep instead and wasn't very productive.
I decided to go to the dance studio soon to relieve stress so i'm excited!

Love Dija

change of tone

so this post is a little different since for once I am gonna try to be serious. It is a matter that I have tried to ignore but every time I think about it (and it does cross my mind a lot) I get sad, disappointed, annoyed......just confused really.
So I was seeing this guy at my school since October I guess, I liked him, he liked me but somewhere around mid Christmas we stopped speaking...well i must admit I did not push it..because i wasnt sure i was returning this semester, so i was pretty much cool with leaving things as they were. When I came back however we seem to have started where we left of!...ahh contentment
Only after he told me something really private he stop talking to me
Now I have a SERIOUS problem when people stop talking to me; I'd rather you say " hey i dont wanna talk right now!" instead of me trying to communicate whether it be texts, or fb or phone calls and you not responding. Breakups are a part of life..correct and I am mature enough to accept when something is over.
I avoided the bar, where we'd hang out because I knew I need time to get over it. After 2 weeks of being ignored i finally got a hint and left it alone.
To celebrate me just being happy again i returned to the bar only to see him!
fine!...it is a public place
But no he had to come speak with me and had the AUDACITY to inquire about the recent silence between us
At this point i snapped!
the point of this is that people are still blinded by race. The person in question; even though he likes me, the problem is that his family is racist. yea you read correctly. In the year 2011 we are still not colourblind; i guess i should know better since in my own country we have racial segregation around election time.
i miss him but life goes on...however i think as a whole we have bigger issues than the fact that we're not the same race. I guess being mixed having both indian and black family; i see things differently.
But, things end and I am ready to move on; I know God has a lot in store for me ....hopefully with less ignorant people

Dija

Winter wonderland

Well I had to go to church even if it meant I would die on my trip there. The snow was literally attacking my body, ... Thank God for a good winter coat and ugg boats!
Talking to my bffs today made it all the better even though they made me sad...Karma is a bitch

I guess I am so difficult to please, my bffs are now displeased with my decisions. I still love them though even though we argue. OREO for life :P
Tmr is apparently president's day but CSBSJU is hardcore! HOLIDAYS ....AT THIS SCHOOL CRAZINESS...hopefully we will get a snow day cause outside is brutal.
I made an executive decision today due to recent developments that I am striking on facebook for the week of carnival...Thurs- Wed
and removing Trinis from my news feed! * ugh*
that is all

Dija

tricks are for kids

so after talking to a very educated person named something!..who knows....lol, answered the question about text messages not being received. To my disappointment there is no text message limbo. Apparently text messages dies after a while when it is in the "system" for too long. bla bla bla something about hops....lol
therefore text that are not delivered eventually die or else they will clog the system like a pipe! and slow down the entire system!...remember when there was only dial up! internet as so pointless back then.
in better news this is the last carnival that  i am missing! yay me!!!!

failed at the stupid blog challenge!

I realized that th challenge was incredibly lame! and if I wasnt interested in it why would anyone else care
30 days is a long ass time!
anyways I sang "forget you- glee version" for karaoke today and i won! yay me... my prize is kinna lame though.. it is a camara..2mp....what a joke
but I am happy I won! there is nothing I like more than winning
have you ever wondered where text go when they werent delivered to the person you sent it to? or the person phone was turned off?/ not working...? hmm makes you think right

30day blog challenge

DAY1  A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

1.  I am sarcastic, funny, overly dramatic,....SCORPIO!
2. When I was younger I was known as sleeping beauty because all the kids in my neighborhood would call me outside to play and i'll be napping, i miss those days
3. Seriously considering going into dance full time..yes i have been out of practice for a few years but i think if i just work hard at it i'll be ok..because chem is kicking my ass at the moment
4. God is very important to me in my life, college has seriously tested my faith, i think i was falling off during sophmore year! thankfully I am back on track RC all the way! :D
5. I love being in charge...idk something about power just makes me happy! omg!
6. I am afraid of being stuck with the wrong person for life
7. I am hopeless romantic <3 i love being in like and pray for the day i experience love again
8. I am determined to succeed even if it makes me lack in sleep
9. i seriously considered going into the convent for like a solid 2 hours, just because i want to travel to the holy land and all that good stuff
10. I am a strong woman and i am proud of myself..confident that i will get my goals

truths

I just got this idea from a friend I met at work last year:

1. I think alarm clocks should be set 1hr before wake up time!..but clearly some idiots need a to be reminded 3 hrs before its time to get up....and snoozes it every 5 mins....*annoyance*
2. I am always afraid when my Mary doesn't answer a text or the phone or doesn't call....don't judge me, my mommy is my person!
3. people will do what they want no matter if they ask you for you advice or not!...so I think people should stop asking what others think
4. personal issues should be taken to the Lord in Prayer!
5. Having few good friends than a ton of people around you that you cant talk to about anything personal with is better. But having at least one person who understands you completely is a gift.
6. I am in firm belief that squirrels are of the devil!..they don't hibernate!..why are they currently frolicking in the SNOW!?
7. I am attached to my nails...don't question it
8. and don't tell me what to do.....As i get older i realize i have a problem with being ordered/ talked down to.
9. I rarely get mad, so when i do it is serious.
10. I'm incredibly emotional but i try to hide it
11. worst quality: not forgiving or forgetting...but i am trying to work on it...it hard...and i'm also trying to get a degree so whatever comes first
12. why is your alarm still going off...it is Saturday! is every 5 min necessary...do you have shit for brains
13. I learned yesterday from my favorite monk and priest FR. Don, that God answers prayers in 5 different ways, two of which are: no I love you too much and yes but you have to wait
14. I am soo not patient :(
15. I wish I could still dance...been out of practice for about 2 years..such a great release of energy
16. why do orange m&m's taste sooo bad? and why cant people tell the difference..they don't all taste the same
17. I am the same way with everyone..including kids...just ask my niherst crew..big up to the  A team also, Hannabag , Roberta, Joey, Pixie, Khris , TAG, Anu, ..of yea and that girl from Grande or whatever..lol and everyone else
18. Ever want to pick the world up and drop it on someone's head?  ...me too! lol
19. I love Nicki Minaj!...and think Katy Perry is the shit!
20. I love my people <3

jar of hearts

Besides being incredibly busy I am finding it super hard to keep up with this blog, but I made a commitment. Right now I have some downtime in lab waiting for this instrument/bitchass  to cooperate. Last week was full of tears, stress, laughter, moments of freaking out, dirty dancing and trying to not freeze.
My weekend started with finding out a close friend of mine's mom hadcancer. It's super sad and I have no idea how to help, except pray. I imagine if Mary was to get cancer...lets not think about it i'll just get sad.
Apparently as a Chemistry major my chances of getting cancer increases. :( it's sad. I still have time though, then again if the world does end in 2012 it wont matter.
I realize that I actually like lab and even though it is alot of hours, there is no place I'd rather be..except maybe in Trinidad on a beach somewhere.
V-day this year makes it the 2nd year without a valentine....life is rough my friends but I have my eye on someone; even though you know i'll never ask anyone EVER...way to shy. Maybe he'll get a clue....(fingers crossed)
This week at the bar was a mess however since I was stalked by an old man who clearly has a fetish for the  the black woman or maybe just me....*running away screaming* Cant pick up anyone decent nowadays, only freaks, fat and ugly people. sigh!
Ok now I'm starving...brb in like a day or 2

wotlessssnesss

The title today is a Trinidadian slang that means...umm ..hmmm "worthlessness" , it is after a carnival song for the year 2011. Yes people carnival is in the air once again but that is of no concern to me since the only celebrating I will be doing is on Friday evening when my week is over. I must apologize for not writing in 500000 days but "I'm a chemistry major!" and these last few weeks have been rough. I am finally getting into a routine, which is good because I hate change. So mini baby ( my mini netbook) scared me this weekend; i tried to charge my ipod only for the screen to blank out on me. PANIC. i saw my life crash, i thought about not being able to talk to my mommy, my pictures...and the sad life I was gonna have in MN without it. So what if I still have my DELL, mini baby is special to me. Thankfully  she stopped being a bitch and is working perfectly once again!

it maybe cold but i'm hot for my chem prof!

omg so today is like negative 10 with a wind-chill of about -50....ok -27...I feel as if my unfertilized eggs are being frozen as I make my way to and from Ardolf(Chem building). I swear my tears are freezing on my eyelashes and I am probably going to be blown away by the wind and buried in snow by the end of this weekend :( I want to go out today and dress...well you know, wear hardly any clothing and go to the bar, but I am afraid if I do this I would be dead. No more Short Person to drive me to the bar :(
But even though I am cold I forgot about the -100 degree outside for 70 mins as I sat in my Organic Synthesis class....sigh! I am determined to impress the prof...so he is married with 2 adopted black kids...not my concern really ( I could make him black kids!). I wonder if Mary reading this...oops :D
either way I scored a 10/10 of the first quiz....I have a brain people! I am sure he is impressed...totally made my day :D
Bar tonight is a must... sigh once I survive the rest of my day

Thankful

God is real...Did you know that? and he is pretty awesome. I am here safe in Minnesota starting my FINAL year in college...bittersweet. I just want this semester to be drama free and just full of good memories....and of course ...weight loss!
I miss the bar a lot but I did not go Sunday night because I didn't go to church. Think about it...how dare I not go to church and then go to the bar and sin..disgusting right...so I passed. Talk about sacrifice!
I totally fell in love with the band " Florence and the Machine" and the song "dog days are over" which was introduced to me on glee. But today I changed my routine....and we all know I don't do to well with change and I ended up listening to all of the bands music...well honestly about 4 songs..who has time to listen to all ...i'm trying to get a degree! Anyways "Cosmic Love" is AMAZING "A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind...." blah blah blah...check it out though..like seriously! good dancing music...I almost killed myself in the bedroom this morning trying to pirouette on the carpet.

Scorpion....?? no duh i'm scorpio!

After 22 years of being a scorpio, some peace of shit website now tells me I am apparently a Libra!....what the hell does a libra do!...who knows and who cares..I am insulted! Isn't Libra the one with the balance..or something...looking lame! no offence to my one libra friend! but like..do I look like a balanced person?..I admit I am an overly emotional, jealous, stubborn, loyal scorpion who will be your friend till death unless well, you get me mad..but lets not get into scorpion's revenge :D
According to another website it only applies to people born after 2009...sure! and apparently some other mystery sign seemed to be invented between Scorpio and Sag!
Now I am calm! still a Scorpio...doing scorpion things!

83

I have no idea what the title of this blog means; it came to me in a dream one night. And if you know me well enough you will know that I am always dreaming and my imagination is pretty wild. Now that is it the 12th of January and BET has brought back "The Game" I think it is safe to say that the world can end in 2012, life is complete! However "The Game" to me was entertaining but a tad disappointing. I guess the long 1.5 year wait, had risen my expectations to want something even more dramatic than having a black president or a female prime minister in Trinidad, sadly like most things it did not live up to my expectations. I'm a hard bitch to please.
Currently I should be basking in the sun on Toco beach getting blacker, or for the used of a better word; tanned! But it's raining and basically the lime is squashed. That meant that I had to entertain Mary (mommy) and her shit and go to the dentist...ugh. After 30 mins of DEATH, it was determined that I had no cavities....great! now what....
Anyways due to my weight gain of about 20 pounds..or maybe it's like 5, but who's counting; I have decided to start back working out and stretching!..the days of be sitting down looking at other people do work are ...not over.... but I will be going to the gym. I will NOT be a fatty.
So many other things to discuss but as usual Mary did not cook...so I have to go look for food.

number 1!

All of my friends who have gone away started a blog! Then I began to think, why not me? I am away, I travel and most times I am interesting. Maybe this can be something I look back and laugh at when I get famous!  or not...lol ( i'm a glass is half full kinna girl) Either way I am writing one about stuff I care about. I should start with a little about my life the last three years, as I have been living in America. I study in the best state in America, Minnesota; to my trinis who do not know where that is; think about carnival and the beach! its NOTHING like that haha its the state above Iowa, below Canada..behind God's back past the devil's ass..sort of like south Trinidad!
Either way MN in great, its safe, its cold and it has the biggest mall EVER and some of the nicest people. Normally I hate MN most times but I think it is because I am home and I actually miss it. This Christmas has been great; I spent it with my family and new year with my best friend Dominique who I think I cant live without. I reconnected with some old high school friends and hung out with the people who mean the world to me. I went to the beach, parties, dinners and the movies, and found time to sit around and do nothing...ahhhh it's the simple things.